tuesday i'm in love

so, i have a c-section scheduled for tuesday.

the thought of delivery terrified me. now that the doctor wants to do a c-section, i am scared of that too.

awesome.

for now, i will focus on the fact that i can't wait to meet this little thing.

because i could not stop for illness...

illness forced me to stop for the afternoon.

see, sometimes i get sick. and usually i convince myself that it's not going to go away just because i go home. and it's not like i can get anyone else ill (at least, i don't think that's where babies come from...)

and then all my books and web sites and silly pregnancy e-mail updates convinced me that i should be starting to feel much better. so i told everyone i was starting to feel better. and for a few days, i was.

then this week happened. and though monday and tuesday can be attributed entirely to the little wild thing, today showed that sometimes baby growing + diabetes = no bueno. and without being too graphic, just trust me. it was no bueno.

so for today, my big prayer is that i will actually be able to work my full nine hours tomorrow. it would be a first for the whole week. and i am reminded (yet again) that sometimes a little humility is a good thing. but i'm going to keep hoping that when my second trimester starts on sunday that illness will listen to all of my books and web sites and e-mail updates, and it will kindly stop for me.

this completely uninteresting post brought to you by a girl who hasn't left her house for anything other than work or church in far too long.

the joys of the celebrity spokesperson

much to jesse's dismay, i spend a lot of time lately researching type I diabetes and the various ways it could drastically decrease my quality of life or simply end my life (morbid, isn't it?). luckily, i stumbled upon this little gem of internet uproar, the sheer ignorance of which sadly warmed my heart. thank you, halle berry...



for a wonderful response to this blissfully misinformed cure to diabetes, may i recommend this article.

hey, who needs the facts about a serious disease from those unattractive "professionals" when we have the wisdom of cat woman to guide our medical decisions? in the meantime, i'll be working on "weaning" myself off of insulin.