Wednesday, August 26, 2009

because i could not stop for illness...

illness forced me to stop for the afternoon.

see, sometimes i get sick. and usually i convince myself that it's not going to go away just because i go home. and it's not like i can get anyone else ill (at least, i don't think that's where babies come from...)

and then all my books and web sites and silly pregnancy e-mail updates convinced me that i should be starting to feel much better. so i told everyone i was starting to feel better. and for a few days, i was.

then this week happened. and though monday and tuesday can be attributed entirely to the little wild thing, today showed that sometimes baby growing + diabetes = no bueno. and without being too graphic, just trust me. it was no bueno.

so for today, my big prayer is that i will actually be able to work my full nine hours tomorrow. it would be a first for the whole week. and i am reminded (yet again) that sometimes a little humility is a good thing. but i'm going to keep hoping that when my second trimester starts on sunday that illness will listen to all of my books and web sites and e-mail updates, and it will kindly stop for me.

this completely uninteresting post brought to you by a girl who hasn't left her house for anything other than work or church in far too long.

Friday, August 14, 2009

some thoughts

we got to see our little wild thing. (ok, ok. you can see it too...)


and we learned that it should be joining us around february 28 (no, this is not a leap year).

the other night i woke up in a panic because i swear i could feel my body expanding. it wasn't comfortable. and i know it will get worse. and i'm terrified. and thrilled.

and then i threw up a few times and fell asleep again. so far, pregnancy really is the joy i had hoped it would be.